Saturday, August 31, 2013

The highs are high


The last three days have been jam packed with orientation to the ship, wards and way of life here on the ship. It has been exciting , eye opening, exhausting, and rewarding.

I arrived to the ship a couple days after my planned arrival due to travel issues.   Karyn did not have the same issues I did and made it to Pointe Noire as planned, safe and sound.   I had two days to try to get used to the ship a bit, and then we had the BIG screening day. A screening day is how patients are selected for surgery. The public is invited to come with what ails them and see if they are candidates for surgery.  There is one big screening day in the beginning, and then many more small ones throughout the stay in each country.  Over 7,000 people arrived in line and over 4,000 of them were patients.

The crew left in a few different waves from the ship, 8 people/land rover. My car left at 0630, shortly after sunrise. The large convoy of white mercy ship trucks full of many (not all) white faces was quite the sight to see through town as many were walking the streets to work. The screening was held in a high school that was still in summer break. It was near the ship 10-20 minutes away. It was a huge compound like school with a sand yard. To prepare the school, each classroom had to be emptied of the many wooden benches. And set up for screening. It took many hands and lots of work to pull of the preparation.  

Here in Pointe Noire there is a strong media presence, also in Brazzaville, which is a 4 hour drive (I think…). There were over 18 different media groups here to cover the event. Due to this strength, the word got out into the community and the people came.  And, came. There were so many, that the line had to keep winding up and down different streets, and as more people came, more streets were taken over by the line.





I worked in an early part of screening where I took a brief health history, a blood pressure and a heart rate.  It asked questions about heart health, breathing status, epilepsy, malaria, diet/weight, and HIV.  I worked with an amazing ‘day worker,’ Bridge, who interpreted for me. Many day workers are hired to help us on ship. They are local people who know the local culture and speak both English and the local languages. We could not do with out them.  Bridge told me he knew nothing of medicine, and that this was all new. I started a tally of how many people Bridge and I saw, and quickly lost count. There were about 10-12 groups of nurses and day workers in my room which was about the size, maybe a little smaller, of a small US classroom. We all sat in plastic lawn chairs in groups of at least 3, a patient and their family, the day worker and the nurse. The room was crowded! People kept coming and coming.  I saw all kinds of health issues, many goiters, some people who had scars/contractures from burns, cleft lips/pallets (children and adults), ortho issues, and facial tumors,  to name some. Some people had to be carried in. I had one young girl, about 8 years old, with clubbed feet who was carried on her mother’s back. Her mom has most likely been doing this since her birth. Everywhere she goes. When she and her mother sat down, she was very apprehensive and fearful. The probability of her being addressed by people other than her family is very low.  Here, when people are disfigured, the community ignores them and casts them away. A big part of our job is to show compassion, to demonstrate their worth through communication, touch and eye contact. This compassion is transformative. When I interacted with her to take my assessment, her face lit up and she gave me the biggest smile.



It was a long hard day, I only got to experience this small piece of the very large operation. In other rooms, surgeons were assessing patients for surgery, patients were praying and being prayed for, and patients were given a scheduled surgery day, which is the most exciting part.  For many, a surgery to fix minor problems will put a whole new perspective on their life.  Not only was this the most exciting part, it was also the most devastating part. There is a phenomenon in medicine where the “highs are high, and the lows are low.”  This is true here.  Not every person we saw is a candidate for surgery. Many were denied.  We do not have the resources to fix all that happens here in Africa.  The sweet girl on her mother’s back was most likely denied, clubbed feet is an issue the AFM will not operate on this field service.

As I continue to process this complex day, I will wrestle with the injustices of the world.  I will try to 
understand, or rather, accept that I may never understand the finitude of life. And how, I can live in a world that has so much pain and suffering.



I cannot get lost in this. I must take hope and be thankful for the difference that can be made.  The healing is not only a physical journey, but an emotional/spiritual/psychological one. A journey in which people can find their worth even in a world filled with cruelty. I hope that those who were turned away from surgery do not feel turned away from the forms of healing, aside from the physical. I can also take hope in the transformation that will happen from the surgeries we are able to do. I am so excited for Monday, when this will become tangible.

~Photos all taken by Mercy Ships Communications on screening day.~

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

#sailwithus

Life has been no less than crazy the last few weeks as I am preparing to go, leaving 17 days from today. It has been a little stressful to say the least. I am not only leaving the country for the first time, quitting my current staff nurse position, packing for three months for life on a ship, packing up my apartment into storage unsure of what happens for me as I return home in 4 months. One of my friends compared my preparation to the same sort of preparation that happens for a wedding, and it is similar. It has taken me months to prepare and many to-do lists full of what is next. Immunizations, insurance, finances, mail forwarding, moving/storage, ect. It has been a little bumpy at times, like the other night when I temporarily lost all my important documents that got mixed up in the wrong pile. They were found after two hours of looking, praying and crying, in the recycle bin.  Luckily that happened before the bin was taken out and they were lost for good. That little come apart happened the same day that the state department issued a serious international travel warning. 
http://www.npr.org/blogs/thetwo-way/2013/08/02/208255213/state-department-issues-worldwide-travel-alert (shouldn't affect where/when I am going, but still anxiety causing)

Also, last week my sister and her husband's first new home that they were fixing up to move into caught fire, burning extensive damage and ruining many of their belongings. The flooring companies trailer caught fire, lighting the side of the house, causing a small amount of damage. Later in the night, the house reignited and caused extensive damage in almost ever room. They have been so excited to move in. It is heart breaking as their excitement is shattered and instead of preparing their new home, they have to prepare to move into temporary housing as it gets repaired and their items get restored and replaced.

Stress has been at a bit of a max point. My right eye is most definitely twitching. And, as I run around like a chicken with my head cut off, I am brought back down to earth with a good dose of 'life is bigger than me' moments.

Africa Mercy is on the move, sailing from Spain to The Congo as I type. This is the furthest south that the ship has sailed so as it travel's, it has sailed past all the previous countries that it has served.  Through it's journey I have been following along through facebook and instagram with the hashtag #sailwithus. In the midst of my crazy moments, I have found quiet moments to read the stories. They have been reminders of why I am going through all this stress and they have put me in my place.


Life is bigger than me. God is bigger.


Here are some links to my favorite stories;





Thank you to all have helped me and supported me through these last couple weeks. I would not made it here with out you.

Saturday, August 3, 2013

A Trip Back Home

Sorry it has been a while since the last post, life is a bit of a tornado right now as I am gearing up for Africa. I am trying my hardest to be fully present in this transition time.



A couple weeks ago I was able to take some time off work and travel west to visit family and friends in Colorado.  Since I moved to Knoxville three years ago I have cherished the time I get to spend with my family and friends on these sorts of visits.  I also cherish simply being in Colorado. It was a fantastic trip.

Some of the highlights were having my Uncle Deny and Aunt Carol visit from David City, Nebraska.  Spending time with my nephews. Going to the gym with my sister-in-law and brother. Meeting up with Elizabeth who was in town from Tennessee with her husband for a conference.  Going for a Harley ride with Rod.  Getting together with Quinn who was in town from Newport Beach.  Kayaking with Sarah.  Hanging out with Kirsten who was in town from Beijing. Visiting my al ma mater University of Northern Colorado. Eating Dad's bar-b-q chicken. Having many meals with many different friends filled with love, laughter and great conversation. It was a busy trip! I won't keep rambling, even though there is so much more to share! It was a trip filled with many blessings.

Here are some of my favorite photos (I have been having fun with my new camera!)





 Mason Joseph, 5 Year's old. Son to my brother Justin and his wife Tracy


Warren Michael, 8 months, Mason's younger brother


Colorado Blue Sky over the Longmont Farmers Market


My Dad (right) Grilling out with my Uncle Denny





My Aunt Carol, from Nebraska


Kendra, a neighborhood friend since we were 5








Sarah, my "adoptive" mother











Kirsten, a friend from Rainbow Trail Lutheran Camp


Elizabeth, from Johnson City





Dinner with Angela (friend from school) and fiancee Kevin


Quinn home from Newport beach





Gunter hall, school of Nursing, UNC Greeley